I'm Just Not Perfect Enough For You

Friday, October 28, 2005

Oh yeah...

This post is titled Oh yeah... because something slipped my mind...

WELCOME BACK NATALIE & GWEN!!! Hope u 2 had a nice OBS trippy~

And also an appeal to all... SEND ME THOSE RETRO SONGS U HAVE!!! Thanks~!

A week has passed...

Wow... A week seem to pass faster than I can snap my fingers (still can't snap my right fingers...) Holidays have finally descended upon the school but for me it doesn't seem like I have one -_-... I still have so much to do~! HELP~!

The week has passed with more reports of avian flu affecting a heckuva lot of countries... I was informed that the sch might be activated as a vaccine centre for the Dover community should MOH (Health) decide to upgrade the current standdown status... And that I would become the technical support for the crew that would come in & set up shop. Another round of 24hr standbys & "pls-on-yer-darn-handphones"... Sigh ZZZ

Also in the news, the story of a man who apparently killed his family prior to his suicide... This particularly rocked me as it reminded me of the situation of my former colleague... Again a married man, with a wife & 2 kids in tow... Desperate & badly debt ridden... Sigh... Who knows what will happen if he decides to take that same route... Sigh...

I'm still wrecked with fatigue after Wednesday's outing to ZOUK! Muahahaha, had my fair share of "molesting" others & BEING MOLESTED... How's that for a night... Traumatic if you asked me... I got "slapped" a la Xiang Long Shi Ba Zhang style... shoved, elbowed, knee-ed, groped... Anything possible at such a place... Hahaha not that I'm like complaning more... Hahaha~! & I'm practising those nifty dance moves I've been observing... Muahahaha Maybe can dance for the PA chalet ah... ahaha just a wild thought... Dun have yer hopes high yer pigs~!

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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

What The...

Whoa whoa nelly... Someone just called me shuai ge eh... hahahaha *Happy Happy*

I JUST REACHED HOME!!! IM DEAD TIRED... zzz stupid laptop... why super damn laggy... I play computer so long I never seen such a laggy comp... Sigh... My duty to save the damsel in distress... Sigh again...

Finally the school is having holidays~ Phew... Long hours are going to be a past... At least for now... I'm going to work on the school in a week's time... Transform the school into what it should be~! Muahahahah *evil laugh*

I'm going to dunno Zouk or dbl o Later... sigh... should I go? Im dead tired ley... Sigh...

I miss someone... Hmmm

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Sunday, October 23, 2005

Sunday already?!

Dammit guys... I must say... WHY DOES TIME PASS BY SO FAST?! Ok... when work I wish it would pass faster... of course must also accomplish when time moving that fast... But... WHY TIME PASS SO FAST FAST FAST WHEN U R HAVING FUN! Grr...

I practically slept the whole of Sunday man... Sigh... went Orchard Kino to see see look look. Spotted 2 magazines but couldnt find the third... Sigh and spotted 2 books that I think I should be getting... hehe. Damn sian also. Kino like no life one... haha

Walked to the toys dept on 3rd level to see my Gundam Strike Freedom & Destiny. Hmm Wonder if I should get them also... I'm neglecting finishing my gundams at home man... I also want that airbrush set. Hmmmm *scratch chin*

Came home to watch Knight's Tale & that Cancer Charity Show... This show sucks man... A lot of stunts failed... Sigh... Oh well...

Pics below from Sakae Sushi outing on Friday~ Hee~! Enjoy! Back to my animes~!

Okie... This hairdo is for Gwen... But she said it's ugly in comparision to the other earlier version... Sigh... Damn hard to please sia...

Okie This is my driving buddy Gladwin, also one of my good friend.

Buncha kahkis for sushi~!

Okie... one of my weirdest pics to date...

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Wah liew...

Shit man... Something Wrong With My Song Player!!! DAMMIT!!!

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What is it?

Wah lau... Again it rained on Wednesday... Dampen my mood man... Heng I never bring my unicycle along... Sigh...

Again a damn busy day for yours truly... Dunno when this bloke will find salvation in his work... Ever problematic colleagues he has, ever idiotic their words are, ever popular the words "Dunno ley" or "Cannot ley" are... God dammit people... TRY FIRST. You dun tell me I also cant visualize... I dun carry a crystal ball around & peer into the skies around you k... Fish man...

Too tired until I'm lazy to eat... Had a super late lunch. Hanyi also cannot tahan. Sigh. Overworked man... I went upstairs to catch a breather & tackle my Prodikeys problem... Still can't solve... I'm going to complain to the vendor tomolo...

Came back home thinking the rain should stop when 7pm comes... INSTEAD I FELL ASLEEP... Kaoz... -_- Hence no goals nor reports from the battlefield for all tonight... Sigh

Oh well. Finally made changes to my blog... Included some weird pics & a wishlist after looking at the source code long enough to realise what tags I didn't type...

Nice night to sleep... I go play Star Wars Clone Campaigns first... Ciao~!

P.S Gwen: My hair hot meh... Hmmm...

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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Tired Tuesday... -_-zzz

Back home I'm at now... Damn frigging tired... What a day it has been... I've like climbed the stairs of my workplace like dozens of times today man... Zzz It didn't help that yesterday was sparring night @ training... so... lagi worse... -_-~zzz

I'm still ecstatic over the prospects of a new part time (Read: REALLY PART TIME) job... Pay is quite ok & enjoyable as well. I love it. Plus the venue is great! Loads of babes & sea & waves... I love waves... They calm me down a lot. =)

Congrats to Gwen for passing her Chinese... See it isn't so difficult after all eh. Haha & Audrey moi daughter/sister... GET WELL FASTER!!! Heh...

Contemplating how to tidy up my ever untidy room... Wonder where is my vacuum cleaner & big big broom... Gotta do something abt it... Hmmm... Oh well... to my games~ Later~

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Friday, October 14, 2005

Finally...

IT'S FRIDAY!!! FINALLY NO MORE WORK ON SATURDAY (ok other than teaching unicycle @ sentosa... hahaha) Finally I can rest easy & relax... I need that man... I really needed that break. Hmmm... zzz

Messing with my hair to "certain" effects & results. Haha not sure whether it's nice since the idea of having straight hair on my scalp is already quite alien to me... let alone style it... Haha pics below~ Haha

Floor's a mess man... with magazines, books, toys (no not THOSE "thingys") & stuff lying abt... I feel like I'm treading on a minefield. Haha~!

Today ah... actually nothing much other than work & chilling out now... So for now I leave you with my pics of my "hair-raising" encounter. 'Nuff said~!

Okie... This is before... hmmm

And... TADA~ This is after~! Using Gatsby's Wet & Hard gel water

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Fab Friday~! (Ok this is a recount of Thursday... -_-)

Hiya all, Damn shag now... Been up & running since 6+ in the morning... Zzzz tiring man...

Shocking revalation: Ms Liang is a good fren of Alice~! Now I cannot skive & slack in school... Die die die... Heng LMH dunno me n Alice's relationship~ (which is basically nothing hor. Dun go thinking of other things)

Finally EOY exams are over... I can take a breather now... & hope with the meeting today the club can get organised again... I really want to see it restored back to the former glory... =)

Haha Gwen called me from the airport today. Gave me a shock when I didnt "recognise" the voice. Haha hope she has a good time there & remembers my presents... Hmmm *scratch chin*

Had a load of fun doing up my version of Google Earth. It rocks man! Muahaha now I can spy on everyone. Too bad it isn't real time... Maybe can try hacking into NRO's satellites. Haha as if...

I did much thinking... Dunno whether to hold on or to let go... Sigh... I mean I dunno now man... Found myself attracted to her for dunno what reasons... Dunno why also... Could it be her goofiness? Could it be her lameness? Or her unseen caring side? Sigh... Time pls tell me faster... Hmmm...

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Yay~!

Finally I bothered to come in... & MY CREATE POST PAGE IS BACK TO NORMAL!!!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Busy week for me once again... Wasted time at a meeting on Sat.. Went for taekwondo black belt grading as an assistant whose duties is to spar with the candidates. Then went to Pastamania~

Supposedly wanted to watch a movie... but then too late n no more tix... so went home...

Sunday also kena the taekwondo grading but as assistant coach n referee. Haha damn shiok man. Went to Orchard to shop with the folks & bought 2 trexis~ Got 1 designed & autographed by the talented bros there~! Wow...

Now... now... Busy Monday & Tuesday... Today just napped there in the Ideas Room in the G.O -_- Tiring man... Got some major problems until I was stumped... But then I guess my luck came... Got it working again. Muahaha went to Suntec to see that Gashapon exhibition. Nt too big ley... But met my old camp mate! Haha talked a long time man... Now Im here writing this~ Pics below when I load them in folks...

A publicity stunt for the show Dark Waters I suppose... Hmmm

Haha... She is actually quite an obdient ghost... haha

No idea what the HELL THIS IS MAN! "Taken" before the above shots

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Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Wet Wednesday???

Mood: Chirpy (@ least for the morning)

Alrighty, Singnet & Singtel folks coming over to settle my internet problems... Muahahaha & I thought I was the one who had to troubleshoot... Going to leave it to them for once this time round. *Act Blur* Thinking of changing to cable... Hmmm...

Again I'm writing this post in office... Sigh. Yesterday had a whale of a time trying to even load a 98mb file. -_- talk abt slow... Most of the stress period is over for me now... Once this week ends... Muahaha...

Re-did my hair yesterday. Kena charged with a bill of $15. Yah you didn't read wrongly. 15 bucks. Damn cheap. Straightened my hair & had a simple trim. Plus a wash. All for that amount. Haha "Tan Dio" ah.

I'm beginning to feel confused again. What road should I choose? Where should I go? FMSS I'll try to stay on... but I'm speaking abt another issue here... Go Figure! Ciao~

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Tuesday! What a tiring day...

Okie... I'm currently reworking my computer due to that stupid fault I keep seeing here... I'm now writing this in my office... shhhhh... Hmmm Reworking of comp means cannot use... =( no good... since I cannot talk to all of ya... Hmm

Oh well, feeling very tired but still I'm in office slogging away... Dammit... I need to rest properly man... But... I cannot... Too much to do ah... Sian... wish I have more arms & perhaps a twin...

I'm feeling a bit low now... Sigh... Dunno what to do ah... Felt like just giving up (which sometimes I just sucked at it... ).. But another part of me will ask me to be persistent & carry through... Sigh...

Continue this once my comp is up... Ciao...

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Saturday, October 01, 2005

A week in review

After talking much to Weishi yesterday, I can't help but wonder again if I'm all the cause of problems in the club. Am I too strict that these young folks cannot take it? She said they have high self-esteem, which leads to me thinking: How do you progress & learn when you cannot take pressure, criticism? They are young adults already, they should know better. I feel it's not a stage where teachers still tell them what is morally right & so on. They know what manners are but I don't see the society practicising them (not even me I admit soemtimes) If I see that they are always putting in 100% I would not have been angry in the first space. I am in the wrong for usually jumping into conclusions & stuff. Sigh I don't know what to do now.

The talk with Andy & weishi made me realise my methods are already dinosaur. I want to improve. I want them to improve. But how?

I am not motivated by money to teach tkd. I just want the sport to flourish amidst those controversies & carry on that sense of learning. But the more I pursue that dream, I seem to be snuffing it out & turning it into a nightmare instead. I'm not seeking to blame anyone. Anyone but me. Because I myself never learnt my lessons. I want that barrier that I myself created to be torn down. I want them to understand what it means to be in this family. I want to understand their role & thinking in all of these. I guess it's the same at work or even living. There's always a lesson in whatever I do.

To Andy & members who are reading this: I AM SORRY FOR MY INAPPROPRIATE ACTIONS

Now the question that still burns brightly in my head waiting for someone to help me answer is: Should I still continue teaching & coaching?

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